Its time..forgive.

I forgive myself tonight and I forgive evryone in this world the way I hope one day they'll forgive me. Heyy Im not perfect but still that doesnt give me the right to hurt them either. I know that now..Wow i really love to learn everything the hard way huh? 

You have no idea how much his last text meant to me. I found my last piece of the puzzle in one of his lines in it.. I've never really talk to him..now that its out, i find that to be a relief and that is the last clue that I was searching high and lows for. Now its complete..only with their blessings and forgiving myself can set me free. Free to move on to the next page ,free to write my own story the way i meant to live it and free to accept qada' and qadar, free from all this hatred and fill them with love and joy instead, free to colour my life and make them beautiful by letting my love ones be part of these awesome colours in my life..Being thankful and realizing how blessed u are turns out to be very important. lose that and u might just lose yourself. I'd love to be that positive person I was..or maybe even better than that..but it all has to start somewhere rite..

So i'll start from here then..

I forgive, I let go, I move on..

thank you for never giving up on me :')

14th May 2012 ,aaa..monday right ?

meet my Baby Zorro <3

My Daddy <33

Well I feel like typing, so I've no idea what to tell you about so i'll just tell you how my day went.. I woke up this morning jumping off the bed cuz i realize that I'm late for work ..so then i drove all the way to bangsar, KL and then had some breakfast with my mum at the Paparich then went to the bank..then I went all the way back to my mum's house for like 30 minutes then I went back out to the workshop to fix the car..Oh and fyi ,the sun is like a friggin huge giant spotlight on top of my head today..and for those who knew me would laugh cuz they know how much i hate being out in the sun..yeahh ,im kinda like a vampire in that way..I can't even stand to see anything that's too bright..its just painful..Okayy ,then I went back home, feed my baby his meds (zorro ze cat) " love this cat sooo much !" and yeaahh ..at like 4 I send my dad to the airport cuz his time is up and needs to go back to pakistan where he  currently works at..I really hope they won't extend him after this contract ended next 7 months..yeahh ..then I just went home and drove to pick up my mum for my final dinner cuz im not gonna have dinner again after this ,need to shed few kgs off ,and I only got like ,ummm...lets see..yadayadayada like  23 days left in hand before i go back to that friggin jail in Perak..well for those who doesn't know where Perak is ..then i'll tell you that its a place ,placed in the middle of no where..surrounded by the forrest and the biggest supermarket there would be Tesco..hmm..interesting place eh ? -.- 

*I actually miss someone here ..and sometimes I wonder if that person misses me too :( ..I wanna believe that she does somehow..  I miss you =.=

i was like WHAAATT ?

       Okay ,this sem so far ,i dah hilang my box of tissue ,almost lost my phone and i think tak lama lagi i might just lose my head kot. Living here all alone sememangnye tidak membantu langsung. I ended up walking a kilometer around the college at 2am in the morning just to wear off myself and get some sleep. But the least this sem is much more calmer compared to the last one but also much more lonelier though despite the people around me that i tried evryday to be with just to put aside my feelings ,I still feel whenever am alone. No matter how many smiles i flash and the laughters that i showed ,when the night falls and everything quiet down ,the loneliness will always come back to haunt me. HELP -.- '

Wow ,Im 18 ?

Heyy guys ,this is a little out dated but this actually happened on 5th november 2011 ..the day i turned 18 :)

Well frankly speaking it was not as what i imagine it would be ..It never really cross my mind that i'll be spending that day in Malacca which is my hometown on my dad's side..I guess it's just my luck that the Eid Adha fell on the 6th of November this year..So of all the activities that i did ,i ended up bakar lemang..hehe ..The playing with fire part is the part i LIKE :)

Then my daddy bought this awsome tiramisu cake that he didn't get to even taste cuz my cousins finish it all up before he could have it ( HAHA ) and i celebrate it with my relatives and my dad ..It was weird ,but then again weird-ness goes along just fine with me all the time isn't it ? so yeah ,thats how my day went down ..

The Second Round of Jail sentence , *sigh -.-'

Well ,am back to this hell hole ..atleast this time my jail cell is located on the Ground Floor instead of the third floor eh ? I have a feeling that this semester is gonna be interesting base on the fact that i actually got 7 different crowds of classes cuz i registered my course late ( yeahh ,i know ..serves me right eh ?) and up till now i have no clue to who my roomates might possibly be..Plus the thing bout having seven different class is that your schedule will definitely be HECTIC ..Despite it all i guess tonight i'll be sleeping alone ...again -.- ( where the hell are my roomates mann ? ) ..Its actually 2 am in the morning and am still wide awake catching mosquitoes for my fishy ..lol ,that’s how bored I am ryte now -.-‘ ..

Compare to last semester ,this semester i'm less blur-ish and more focus on my target i guess ..my dad wants good results as his birthday present this year and am gonna get it for him .So naturally by hook or by crook im gonna have to be a supergirl again ( cuz this semester schedule is just heckk ..everyday from morning to the evening ..i mean my monday class is untill 10 pm ) and i have 7 different crowds of 33 people to adapt to this sem..Welll ,I am Aina right ? then Im gonna triumph cuz there's NOTHING that Aina can't do ! Dean's list title you better get ready cuz im gonna get you for sure this time aite ..wish me luck guys ..love ,aina :)

Meet My Shiny New Fishy :)

Believe it or not ,i woke up that morning just longing for a plate of fried maggie at the mamak stall and ended up carrying a fish back to the college with me .My roomate yaya was out of town for 4 days so i got bored eventually and decides to go eat 'real fooood' (if you're a UITM student then you would totally get what i mean by real food ) .So  yeahh ,there i was in Bandar SIDEC just walking towards the mamak stall and i saw a Pet Shop ryte beside the mamak stall ..you see i have this thing for pets ,especially when im lonely .Im not that social of a person ,but then i never liked the feeling of lonesome ..it just scares the shit out of me .So ,I when in and i saw this Argus which is sooo adorable but its hard to bring it in soo i decided to take something smaller .well if you're wondering ,argus is actually a guiney pig .Ryte so i bought the fish instead which is smaller ..and thats how i bought my shiny new fishy ..oh and i only paid for like RM9 for the fish, small and adorable tank ,the anti-chlorine and the fish food ..quite cheap eh ? Haha wow ,you guys must be really awesome or bored that you guys actually read my story of my fishy till here ,but bored or not i still thank you for reading it..have a good day :)

Selamat Hari Raya and Happy Eid guys and girls :)

I have been A-wall for like years now...okay fine , months now ..but Tommorow is RAYA and i had just finish of putting on meat on the sticks and my hand is like yellow-ish now .sort of like an alien ,heee ...atleast it suits my style eh ? This year im oblige to celebrate 1st Eid day in Kuala Pilah ,which is my stepmum's hometown .There's a lot of feeling to it ..a lil bit awkward and a lot of weirdness .Thank god weird-ness is a part of me so i can take it all quite well .Heyy atleast this year i get to spend the first Eid day with my daddy ryte ? 


My Raya outfit theme colour this year is....( drum roll please )  ...PURPLE ! heeeee ,its just a pretty simple purple Baju Kurung with  small white polka dots prints on it .It took me only 15 minutes to find it but i love it to bits .However ,if you know me well ,every outfit i put on everyday have to have some thing like..WOAHH ryte ?Well this year it happens to be my charles and keith pair of shoes .It IS my new obsession .I'll totally let you guys see it later on when i have the time to upload the pictures in this very post itself .Well so far so good and like it or not i do miss arinah and my roommate though ,its weird not having them around ..SO HAPPY EID DAY ! loves :)