Aina Nadhirah :Not Lifeless ,Not Breaking The Rules and Not Taking this Anymore .capish ?

Okay I guess its time to set my life straight cuz its all tangled right now .set my priorities straight (oh god i sounded like my mom ) and get all the negativity shit out of my head and out of my life .
so ,
1. Im cutting off the calories ,the oily food and all the fats ,straight ahead to 
     vege and fruits . 
2. Im going to ignore all the social stuff ,my two faced friends ,these actors and 
     actress whom i think deserves   an Oscar for their amazing perfomance
     everyday in school .Yeah ,thats right ,sometimes this girl has got to quit being   
     miss smiley face all the time .its tiring really .
3.Im gonna ignore the bloody school accept if it contributes towards my goals 
"yes TEO ,screw your warning letters !"

4. Im soooooo gonna focus on my ultimate    
     goal of the year which is the 10A+ in
     SPM ( Sijil Paling Mudah )
     and i swear im gonna get all that 10A+   
     in my hands .
5. Im gonna pray 5 times a day and pray  
     on hopping for the best .


And with all of this above ,the WHOLE WORLD shall be my witness of my vow .
So ,yeah , Bring it on people !!

Cry Baby ..

Okay call me cry baby or something ,i dont care but this song strikes my soul and did shed me to tears .

There goes the JPS ..

and now ... the real war begins .I just found out that i got 75% for maths ! that sucks in a way that others scored 90 to 100 ..plus the paper was easy ! argh !! wtv ,i guess i have to master my probability than :)
Actually ..thats it .I mean nothing more .just some boring day .

THIS IS ADLI .

 One of my anoying lil brother..I finally got the pics from my uncle ,theres millions of em ,but this is still my favourite :)

Screw You Damn Chemistry !

and..for the 1000th time ,CHEMISTRY SUCKS ! thought i'd never find myself saying this but damn physics was wayy easier ! Screw that dude from the tuisyen centre for making me study some stuff that didn't even came out for that fucking paper !and even screw the damn stupid door for knocking my foot this morning .AGGRRH ,today is just not my day ...again .*sigh* .

       Im tired ,stressed out and just so down .Its like wanting to fight for something but feels like nothing ..just hopeless ..Everything i do just seems to be blown away again and again .i learn 1 thing and when i learn something else the 1 before is gone .Im soo tired of having to constantly catching up .I feel like im in a big race ,everyone is almost at the finishing line and im ..im still there in the middle of the race track wondering wheres the line ? how do i win this ?can i even catch up ?is it worth struggling ?.."is there still hope left ? "

these voices in my head ,these question haunts me every minute of the day .when i play ,when i study ,when i hang out ,when i eat ,when im awake and even in my dreams ..it's still there...like a broken radio repeating these questions again and again ..

     But when i talk to my dad ,my mum ,even my brothers ..I have to keep pushing .and yet ryte now ,when i look up to my reflection ..i couldn't bring myself to keep on saying theres still time ,theres still a few chances ,theres still hope .I see a person ,i see a teenage girl being knocked down a thousand times and still get back to her feet and i don't wanna let her down .If i give up now ,everything that i've worked for this whole year will be for nothing .so i can't go back huh ?

i guess there's only one way straight then ..i'll just pray for the best .

EVENTS THAT NEVER ENDS ?!

Si decided to help out a little ,on saturday i sleep over at her house .
met her cousins :)
she thought me how to play the guitar chords for the song "the only exception -by paramore "
and oh we design cuppy cakes and had maggie :)
ain't nothing better than a bowl of maggie in a rainy night :)


Later that night we played chatroullet and omegle !
arinah got a fiance from turkey named omar and what the heck ,we even get to learn turkish language like evet means yes  ! I end up sleeping around 4.30a.m because arinah can't stop singing the whole lullaby melody and i think she finally fell asleep around 7 ?! 

hmm ,idk ..she was talking to that blue hair dude from australia /japan . 
haha ,next day went to closed pasar tani and giant .
then nad arrive at 3 something (so much for coming early to help nad !!!  )  (:
then the whole thing went well .so i went back home at 6 .


The next day ,
OMG i felt terrible ! my head feels like im hungover or something for the entire fucking day !
so i slept like since the first period till recess time at school and from 2.30 till 7pm !
and yet my head is still killing me !
well arinah practically felt the same wayy except for the shaking and vomiting and all .
I guess thats the price you have to pay for tiring ur body + lack of sleep .
agrhh ..thank god for clarinase ! today i felt superbly well at school cuz i was heavily drugged this morning !
still feel a little light headed ,so i went to the salon for a nice treat for my head :)
PHYSICS ?
i totally answered the whole damn thing !even the essays ! heee :)


SO there's about 48 days till the big exam and i think i made a lot of progress compared to the march test which in that time seems like hopeless for me !
but still there's much to be done here ..i just hope that i'll be in a great shape during through out the exam !


Im sure ,when that day comes i'll be well prepared for the battle !
so SPM ! Bring it on baby !!!!!!