To whomever that has been in Malaysia before ,the title sounds pretty familiar eh ?The sun literally burns my skin ,even my eyes ,especially today where the clouds drifted by the wind that flew it up all the way towards the north of the country and left us all alone with the sun . There's just sooo much stuff i have to settle before this 22nd and the weather nowadays is not being co-operative at all .My head is spinning and the accidental good knock on my forehead by my mums elbow is NOT making it any better .I still have medical check ups ,stuff to buy ,stuff to pack ,clothes to choose ,documents that is yet to be found ,bank account to activate ,travelling arrangements ,reading each and every info they gave me,monthly food allowance to apply ,places to be at ,friends to bid final goodbyes ,and ..keep my sanity intact .14 days to do it ..thank god I have my mum around to drive me around town for everything and to explain the whole offer letter and stuff to me cuz its all in PROPER malay which is somehow hard for me to get and my dad who actually surveyed the place 3 thousand miles from here and told me all the good stuff bout the place and got excited even more .Don't get me wrong though ..I am greatful for even getting the offer in he first place and above it all ,I'm greatfulI to be blessed with such loving and supporting awesome parents .I am EXCITED ,I mean I should be right ? everything is just going perfect for me now ..
Well everything is almost-perfect ,but it could have been absolutely perfect if I could share my excitement and fear with my dearest best friend .Usually stuff that is as thrilling and big like this I would have share it with her ..but unfortunately its not that simple in this case...there's this one tiny little problem ...she didn't get the offer .Neither of us were there for each other but i guess in this case she's a lot more depressed than me ..I wish I could see her before I go or atleast for 5 minutes .I ended up picking up the phone and dialed he number..but when I did get to hear her voice ,we both just ran out of words to say which is just sad ..I hate the silence on the phone just now ..I've never quite heard a silence that loud before..sort of like ...a stranger .We both know that we're suppose to be there for each other but I know she's too down to be happy for me and im just too caught up with everything that's happening waay to fast and got tide up with time that is just too limited for me now.She slipped off my mind for awhile and it was wrong for me to do so .I love her like my own sister and now she's falling apart ....and I don't know what to do or say to hold her together .All I could do now is to just pray for her to be able to pick up my phone call one day with a cheerful laughter and a big smile on her face like she does everytime .I don't know if you would read this ..but I want to thank you for everything ,teaching me stuff that I wasn't good at and I don't blame you for not wanting to see me cuz I know you hate goodbyes ,I don't have to wish you good luck because you don't need luck to stand back up because I know you're bright and strong enough to do so .Don't worry you won't be alone here .you still have your bestfriend megamind there whom I know will watch over you and keep you out of trouble.I know you'll be just as awesome as always .take care ,i heart you always .
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